Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

Well, been a bit since I've made an entry. A *lot* has been going on. Even if I tried to sum it all up with "I'm pretty much disgusted and worn out on the government we live under", it wouldn't do it justice, whatsoever. So therefore, I think I'll break it down into two revelations I've had as of late.

First and most important, the violence that keeps happening AGAINST police-officers. Prayers and condolences to the fallen police officers, as well as the injured police officers, and their families and extended family that were injured and/or killed in the Dallas massacre. For the record, I'm typically not the type to side with and defend police, at least in general.

Some brief backstory on that would just be to point out that as a child/teen growing up, my mother (who I'm also not the biggest fan of at times) used to have regular run ins with the police for various reasons, even a few times leading to raids of our house, where an officer/constable actually threatened my dog to me, a dog with a loud bark but no bite... saying, "if that dog even looks like it's going to attempt to attack me, I'll shoot it"; I was about 12 or 13 at the time. Then there's my father's continual run ins with the law/police around the same age, as well as prior, and beyond... where he kept racking up DUI after DUI until he was finally sent to a school that actually taught people how to drive while drunk. (Seems the idea was that if they're bound to be repeat offenders, they'd rather have them be as safe as possible for everybody else on the road.) Thankfully my father never had any drunken accidents... well, none fatal at least, not withstanding the time about a half-mile from ours house, he either dozed off or over-shot the turn and landed his car in a huge ditch. Was out skateboarding that night, and heard his voice call out my name, I turn and look, and see him jogging up the secondary street leading to the street we lived on. Could hear it in his voice that he was drunk and needed me to help him call a tow-truck, etc, etc. Think I was about 14 at that point. Anyways, there'd be times where the entire family would be out and on our way to the beach or something, and get pulled over, because a cop would run the plates and see that my father's license was suspended, and then there'd be the ticket to boot, the license taken away, and when it turned out my mother also had a record and possible license issues, they'd tow the vehicle, and instead of having a fun time at the beach, we instead had to find a way to get home, since we'd be stranded on the side of the road. And yeah, it was just awesome when other cars were driving by, watching our entire family in swimwear standing on the shoulder while a police officer along with a tow-truck driver are taking our family-vehicle away, then all the expenses of having to pay stuff off, and get it from impound, etc. I was working multiple jobs at the time for extra spending-money (since my mother had a habit of blowing most of my father's income, so to even afford clothes or shoes or necessities, I had to work to pay for such things)... used to kind of piss me off when I would have to dig into the money I'd earn to help bail out my parents... when at that age, it's typically the other way around. How's that for having to grow up fast!?

So, even though that rambled on a bit, that kind of points out, that I haven't exactly had the best track-record growing up with feeling comfortable in trusting that law-enforcement wouldn't have some sort of second-hand, or even direct, adverse effect against my being and surroundings. BUT, even with that said, what I see transpiring as of late, is absolutely disgusting... and when I say disgusting, I'm referring to groups like Black Lives Matter and others actually purposely targeting and killing police.

#AllLivesMatter

For starters, there's TONS of logical hypocrisies and issues with it. First, the idea that black community preaches of, "just because one black person did these horrible things, don't blame all us black folk", yet, because the actions of a cop that may, or may not, have been justified in another state, in another incident, where all the details haven't even surfaced yet (one incident of which the woman recording with her phone even admitted in the video that there were drugs in the car, and it also came out that the man who was shot had a permit to carry a gun which could suggest he may have had a gun involved)... they feel it's okay to massacre other cops in a completely different state, shot on site, without any knowledge or proof or record of their own "excessive force" or "brutality"... so they preach that it's not okay to condemn the entire black community for the exception and the actions of a handful, but due to the outcome of a police officer, that again may, or may not, have been justified, it's perfectly okay to condemn all cops... yeah, because that makes like no sense whatso-friggin-ever!

Now the second logical, or rather illogical, issue with violence against the police. Point blank, after mobs of enraged black folks burn down cities (Ferguson, etc), target and kill police for months... how are the cops supposed to be psychic to know whether or not the black person they're approaching doesn't want to see them killed!? It just encourages them to approach all issues in black communities with their finger on the trigger. It's a bit akin to my argument as to why people on terrorist watch-lists shouldn't be issued guns... because when they use them for heinous or terrorist acts, it just again brings a dark cloud over ALL gun owners and makes them all have to keep doing the same song and dance of "don't change anything, it was just the exception". It's the same sort of logic for the black communities... "even though thousands of us gathered together to burn down cities, and then there was the one that was mowing down officers in Dallas, or the multitude of hunted and targeted cops for the past many months... oh really, everything's cool, you can trust me". The actions of these extremist black folks are doing ZERO favors to the black community and instead are actually being more problematic to the issue! The media and the hype and the narratives being pushed are damaging too! So much kool-aid making so many black people believe that every cop wants to target them and kill them, so that when they're pulled over by a cop, they might truly believe that it's their last stand and they have to fight to their last breath to survive... I mean hell, I'm not even black, but if I felt there was any truth to that in any situation, I'd go out with a bang too fighting with everything I have. BUT, the reality is, that's NOT the reality... that's NOT the truth. When we look up the numbers, the amount of black people overall that have been shot, injured, or even killed by cops, PALES in comparison to the amount of blacks shot and/or killed by other non-law-enforcement blacks.

Which brings us to the third illogical hypocrisy... black people are led to believe that every encounter with law-enforcement means they're a dead-person-walking and they need to fight with everything they have to survive (which again is totally bogus)... BUT, how does that same logic not translate to police when month after month, police are actually hunted down and killed, or are shot down in droves like in Dallas, or when the Black Lives Matter community want to torch whole cities, displacing families, businesses, heck there was even a senior-center that burned to the ground... but by their logic, it's perfectly logical for blacks to feel like in every encounter they need to fight for their very lives, but police-officers somehow aren't supposed to fear for their own lives when coming into contact with such toxicity!? WHAT!? *facepalm*

"For God so loved the world, that He gave his only begotten Son, that whoever believeth in Him should not parish, but have everlasting life." - John 3:16 (KJV)

Now, the other thing that's been on my mind... been coming to a realization that's making me kind of review some outlooks on life throughout my life. Nothing serious, just kind of feeling like how one wonders if perhaps they're lifting some wool from their eyes for the first time.

By that I guess I mean that... most my life, I always felt I leaned a bit to the left when it came to politics, even though I've never been able to truly say I'm any party, since I can logically agree with different viewpoints in all parties on different topics. But looking around in the modern-day at the mind-blowing and simply outlandish SJW/politically-correct/kool-aid propaganda narratives coming out of the left, it really makes me stop and ponder.

When I was young, some decades ago, the left believed that there was room for change, for "liberating" the typical mindsets. Heck, if I recall, and I might be in error, I had though that it was the left that were strictly against the idea of political-correctness. Back when I was young, as all these chants kept blaming music, and games, and movies, and books for all the bad stuff that was happening, and there were pushes to censor it, remove it, destroy it, etc... the left were the ones that said free expression, like with paintings in a museum, the retort was, "if it makes you so uncomfortable... DON'T STARE AT IT, look in any one of the other 4 or 8 (depending on how you think of it) cardinal directions!".

The left also believed in equal-rights for ALL; for all races, for all genders, for all beliefs, for all religions (at least on paper), for all lifestyles, etc. I still believe in those things.

But now and days, where certain REGULAR words are being "branded" as "politically incorrect" or to "have certain racial undertones", it's mind-blowing. Like how they claim the word "thug" is racist. Oh really now? So if I were to say that I truly believe that George Zimmerman was a thug, is that the same racism they're referring to? When the word justifiably fits the person? Or how about if I were to refer to Kevin Fedderline, the whitest trailer-trash in America, as a thug... is it still racist? Oh, it's not!? So not only does it prove the word has ZERO racial undertones, it also proves that it's yet another modern-day leftist double-standard.

Then other crazy nonsense like the horrors of "manspreading". My mind was beyond blown away when people tried making a public outcry somewhat-emergency because supposedly the beloved actor TOM HANKS was "caught manspreading". *facedesk* (Picture below...)

First appearing on BuzzFeed, quickly turned into people screaming at Tom Hanks for daring to "manspread", to find out that the train he was on was half-empty and there were empty seats everywhere; not to mention the lady's purse on the seat was COMPLETELY ignored! -_-

Or even modern-feminism, how they preach that all these women in the FIRST-WORLD countries are *still* oppressed in every facet of their daily lives. Hey, I'm all for equal rights for all, but women OPPRESSED in this country!? Yeah, okay... oh, but then the irony, when you tell them they're crazy, they THEN show you pictures of women in the middle-east and THEIR oppression, and then assert that you're saying that oppression in THIRD-WORLD countries doesn't exist... even though for quite awhile those of sound mind have been saying, constantly, that these modern-day third-reich feminazis should take the SAME ENERGY they're WASTING on "oppression in the first-world" and actually focus on "oppression in the third-world". So for them to throw oppression in the third-world in the face of the sound mind in their defense on milking it like thieves in the US is so facepalm worthy, one could probably take my fingerprints at this point from my forehead. xD

So anyways, just all this modern crazy nonsense coming from the left. Gets me to thinking that perhaps the narrative spinners these days just aren't that good at it and it's so easy to see the craziness through it... but leaves me to wonder if perhaps there hasn't always been a touch of crazy and outlandishness to the left. Like, while I was growing up, was I led like a sheep to believe in and fight for things that were just over-dramatized and not actually the issues they were turned into!?

The older I get, I realize there's two distinct images for each side of the aisle. The right and/or Conservative, tend to represent having success, at times by working hard, and being proud of that success and wanting to defend it, being about old-fashioned ideals, wanting to be about strong family-values, etc. Yeah, there's flaws in each of those on the opposite side of the coin (just as there are flaws to each ideal of the other side of the aisle as well), sure, but that's the face-value take of it. While the left and/or Liberal, tend to represent more the rebels that want to oppose the system for what they believe are the right and righteous reasons, they tend to want to be modern-day Robin Hoods -- taking from the rich and giving to the poor, they want to fight more for the lower and bottom-class, want to strongly push for freedoms for all, typically.

But what's so mind-blowing odd is, as I explained above, the left USED to be about pushing for freedoms for all, but now they're heavily into wanting to censor everything that makes them uncomfortable, or control the world, and ONLY allow their message typically. (Just look at the violence that's been wages towards Trump-supporters by anti-Trump supporters... even if you're against Trump, you can't deny that it's hypocritical... the anti-Trump would have everybody hear their message, hear their voice, while trying to silence everybody else through force and violence.)